Back to work!
My 2-day (little)ordeal is over. It really made me realize that I may have grown older, but in some ways I'm still like a little girl. The last time I bawled my eyes out in a hospital was when I was about 8. 11 years down the road and I'm still the same. When I look back at what happened on Tuesday I feel amusement, and a little shame. I could have just faced it like a brave person. But then again I am in a foreign country, sick and without family. I panicked. To be honest, the whole process didn't hurt as much as I imagined it to be. It wasn't the pain I was so afraid of. It was just that at that moment, I suddenly felt very very alone. I felt cornered by the doctor, the nurses... the place. I wished to hell to see a familiar face, or to hold on to a familiar hand. No one in the room understood why I couldn't stop tearing as I sat there, waiting for the drip to be done. I kept thinking of family, the people I love, home...and the tears wouldn't stop.
The aunty sitting next to me was very friendly. She kept talking to me, asking me where I've been to in Shanghai, how I like the place etc. She pointed out the old man sitting opposite me and told me he has to be put on the drip almost every day. Then she told me, “
你又高,
人长得又漂亮,
就是胆子不大。
明天我也会来。
明天不要看到你再哭了。
你要勇敢orh。”
And those were the words I remembered on the 2nd day there when I was there, in the room, queuing up to get poked. I didn't shed a tear, nor hesitate in giving my hand to the nurse(ok confession but I was a nervous wreck in disguise). I saw her in the room later and we smiled at each other. It was a little heartwarming :)
Must also thank Jijie's aunt, who held my hand in the process and encouraged me all the way. Without her company I would probably have had a much harder time. Her heart is made of gold :)
xx
Temperatures next week will be dipping as low as 8°, with the highest being 14° oh golly.
P.S. I am witnessing 2 employees being dismissed, right in front of my eyes! I'm trying to be discreet. Sad. Harsh harsh reality. Edited: Okay I was wrong it's not just 2 it's like 5? Or are there gonna be more. And today I just happened to change a seat facing the other direction, that's why I'm able to see it happen. If not, when these sad dejected people walk out, I'd probably still say a cheery "bye!" to them oh gawd.